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(Crystal: A Comic on the Mind) chp.1 Page 3 by MeltingCORE-NEO (Crystal: A Comic on the Mind) chp.1 Page 3 by MeltingCORE-NEO
I am Emily and I have Schizophrenia. Crystal is a story that explains what being Schizophrenic is really like. I started writing this story in 2008 but became ashamed. I’ve started writing it again because of my friend’s song Calalini and encouragement from my boyfriend. I want other Schizophrenics to know that they’re not alone. I want people who don’t have Schizophrenia to understand that it’s there even though they can’t see it. I also want them to know that it’s very possible to have Schizophrenia and live a fairly normal life. I’m here to raise awareness for Schizophrenia.

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Crystal: "And apparently that's not ok. I see things. And I..."

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Obscure-Smudge Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Student Filmographer
Your dark, pseudo realistic style is definitely helping to communicate the mystery and pain of schizophrenia.
The stark contrast between black and white, positive space and negative space almost parallels the boundaries between Crystal's reality and insanity. Although I admit your style looks at first a tad awkward and needs some refining, your message remains clear: and that's the most important part.

I'd like to suggest that you try to work with negative space as well, like coloring a panel entirely blank except for the part that you'd normally ink in to show Crystal's perspective: an austere and near magical world that holds both her pain and disillusionment with her surroundings.

Also I agree with you, this whole idea media making Schiz "an edgy twist" is very insensitive and ignorant. Chaos;Head, a fairly decent anime, sadly does this as well.
MeltingCORE-NEO Featured By Owner Jun 29, 2012  Student General Artist
Hello Samir. Thank you for saying those things, it means a lot to me. I agree - my style still needs some work but I'm definitely practicing everyday. I will try your suggestions and see how they work out - I'm sure they'll look good since your suggestions are always helpful.

I haven't seen Chaos;Head (I've heard of it though), but if they make Schizophrenia into something that's "cool", then I'll be too insulted to watch it.

Also, I'm really worried about this kind of stuff so I feel like I have to say it, but I hope you don't think I'm a freak or anything now. I really do try to act normal and I think people buy it...
Obscure-Smudge Featured By Owner Jul 1, 2012  Student Filmographer
For Chaos;Head, they deal more with delusions due to a government conspiracy mind machine thing, but the protagonist who's this "afraid of everything" wuss is believed to have some sort of mental illness which adds to the psychological aspect of the show.

And honestly I don't see you as any kind of 'freak". In fact I have a lot more respect towards you for how you're treating Schizophrenia. Rather than hiding it, you're taking a stance along side it and using your talents as an artist to tell others of it. Many artists nowadays have such great talent but nothing to say. They copy styles and mimic character archetypes to gain self-worth, attention, and watchers. You however have an idea to convey. A social issue that needs correcting.

I couldn't be more proud of you Emily :'D.

Personally, there's probably some word or disease that explains why I'm so hyperactive and distracted at times (ADHD maybe?), but I've lost the need to give it a name, because its part of my identity. I've found my own ways to cope with it and even work with it. And I don't see any reason why I'd want to get rid of it, even if it means that I'll still speak quickly and get fidgety at times.
MeltingCORE-NEO Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012  Student General Artist
Oh, okay - that's actually not too bad then. (Still kind of annoying though...) I thought you meant it was one of those "oh hey this mental illness is so cool" type things. (Isn't Chaos;Head made by Nitro+? They made one of my favorite VNs - Saya no Uta.)

Thank you, Samir. (You really are a good friend.) It has taken a lot for me to put this comic online but I really do hope it A) Changes some of the social stigma surrounding Schizophrenia and B) Makes the other Schizophrenics know that they're not alone and that they're not doomed to be stuck in some mental ward somewhere.

That does sound like ADHD - that's what my brother has and the way you act does remind me of him sometimes. And you're right, it is apart of who you are. (I actually love listening to you explain things to me because you get so into it!) I wish I could say the same thing about Schizophrenia but I can't really say it's pleasant most of the time... (Some of the symptoms are rather... vicious if you know some of what happens with Schizophrenia.)
Obscure-Smudge Featured By Owner Jul 3, 2012  Student Filmographer
A quick Google search says yes, it was made by Nitro+!
And its sequel is the ever-popular Steins;Gate.

Well, I'll just sit back and keep on watching how your comic unfold.
Best of luck ;)
MeltingCORE-NEO Featured By Owner Jul 4, 2012  Student General Artist
Thanks. :hug:
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